Lolita Wolf's Predictions & Predilections

As a BDSM Sex Educator and Author, I don't just talk about it. I do it! And then I write about it.

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Noodles and Mummies in Boston!

May 15th, 2016 · No Comments

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One minute, you’re walking around Harvard Square, maybe eating some noodles, and the next moment you’re completely immobilized, swaddled like a mummy. Lolita, pictured here with one of her mummies, will show us how to perform this inexpensive and versatile form of bondage. We don’t have a pool rented for the workshop, but we do plan to have the most fun possible on dry land!

So mark your calendars for Friday May 20. Queer + Kinky is kicking off the evening at 6:15 pm with dinner at Wagamama noodle bar in Harvard Square. Then the workshop will be held down the street at the The Democracy Center from 8 pm to 10:30 pm. Doors open at 7:45 pm. Join us for workshop, dinner, or both!

Please RSVP using our easy
GOOGLE FORM

More info here.

 

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Preferred Pronouns aka PGP

September 2nd, 2015 · No Comments

Nowadays many people ask “What is your preferred pronoun?” This is a tidy way of respecting one another’s gender identity. Gender is not always so obvious and it can get even more complicated with people who are genderqueer and maybe prefer they/them or zie/zir or something else entirely.

A few months ago I taught at Debauchery in North Carolina. This was just a great event. Part of the reason is that the organizers work really hard to embrace all kinds of diversity. When filling out the registration, you were asked for your pronoun preferences. I filled out as “She/her. Sir, not Ma’am.”

When I got to the registration table at the event, my preference was printed on my badge! So cool! This seems like a trend at events now. TES Fest also had a space on its event badge for preferred pronouns.

So, at Debauchery I did not think much about the words on my badge until a couple approached me to ask questions before my class started. The man addressed me as Ma’am which is always gets my back up. Sometimes I correct people, especially if they are somebody I care to interact with in the future. But oftentimes, I just swallow it and go on. Like at work, I do not want to make waves with a customer who is only trying to be friendly and respectful.

Anyway, I had been addressed as Ma’am and it did not feel right. However, I realized that I had this bright shiny new tool to use. I showed them my badge and said, “It’s Sir, not Ma’am.” The guy paused to look at it and then said, “Whatever. What I really want to know is…”

I was seunned. I felt dismissed and disrespected. That guy’s use of Ma’am had nothing to do with any sense of respect. It was probably just a southern vernacular. The interaction left a bad taste in my mouth.

Later that day, another person addressed me as Ma’am. Again, I trotted out my badge. He was quite serious as he barked, “Yes, Sir!” I loved his enthusiasm and it made me feel really good about it.

So, while your preferences on a badge is a great idea, it will only be a valid tool if people aren’t assholes.

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Deck The Balls

November 7th, 2014 · No Comments

I’m very excited that I will be a judge at Onyx Northeast Deck The Balls on Friday December 19th! This will be so much fun!

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The Essence of Queer Sex

November 4th, 2014 · 1 Comment

 

So, I had a date with Casey, who is a regular play buddy of mine. Usually we get together and I hurt her. She has the most beautiful eyes when she suffers. We were staying in Oink and she invited me to get comfortable on her bed so that she could massage my feet. Oh, wow, I was shocked. I had never ever had anyone work on my feet the way that Casey did. Most often it is either too much and it hurts in a bad way, or else it’s too little and feels like a feeble rubbing. This was amazing.

I lay back with one foot in her lap just feeling ecstasy. I moaned and groaned. It seemed like the massage was lasting a long time. But I allowed myself to not worry and just relax and enjoy. I didn’t care about anything except feeling what Casey was doing with my feet. I was being in the moment.

At some point, Barbara walked in from a date and plopped down on her bed, which was next to Casey’s. She took in the scenario, “Wow, you are just taking this and allowing yourself to enjoy it so much.”

I turned to her, “This is the essence of Queer Sex.”

She leaned in a bit closer, “What do you mean by that?”

“Well, heteronormative sex is centered around P.I.V. (Penis In Vagina) sex. Everything else, like any kind of touch, is just foreplay that leads to PIV. And the epitome of PIV sex is the simultaneous orgasm.

“PIV is about two people giving and taking at the same time. Both people are active and passive at the same time. Both are trying to give their partner an orgasm while simultaneously trying to have an orgasm.

“Frankly, I am frustrated by that kind of sex. I can’t fully engage in giving when I am taking it and I can’t fully engage in taking it when I am giving it. I want to concentrate on one or the other.

“Queer Sex allows me to do this. It’s about two people working together towards the same goal: getting one of them off, in whatever way “getting off” is for that person. Queer Sex is I’ll do you and then later, you’ll do me. Later can be just after, or the next morning, or as in the case with me and Casey, we won’t see each other for months in between play dates.

“I have talked to people about sex and so many think that they have to always reciprocate all the time and not just luxuriate in the sensations. They worry that they are being selfish. They worry even if their partner tells them not to worry. What is wrong with being selfish? We are told that being selfish is a bad thing. It’s not. This is about yourself. Allow yourself to enjoy without worrying about the other person. You can worry about the other person next time.”

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Voodoo

July 23rd, 2014 · No Comments

We went for brunch at Tom’s Restaurant in Coney Island. I like the lemon ricotta blueberry pancakes. I also really love Coney Island. Afterward we wandered around. There was a guy on Surf Avenue near the Freak Show with a 3D printer. He showed us how he scans people and then makes a little statues of them.

Don Quixote was excited about this. His wheels were turning as he asked questions. He then turned to me and asked, “Wouldn’t it be cool for you to have a little statue of me?”

“Well, it’s made of ABS plastic…”

“And?,” he wanted to know.

“It’s too hard to stick pins into it.”

“>He looked at me eyes wide open and did not say anything.

“But that’s cool,” I said. “I can always stick needles directly into you!”

He still did not say a word. He just held my hand as we crossed the street to the subway.

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When Pigs Float

September 8th, 2013 · No Comments

These are photo from my favorite camp event, Dark Odyssey Fusion. I’m on staff and do the programming for the classes. I love this event because I can play outside. I can even play in the pool!

These photos were taken by NearlyCandy.

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Judging IML 2013

August 10th, 2013 · No Comments

What an incredible honor it was to be chosen to be one of the judges for International Mr. Leather 2013. The other judges were amazing and I really enjoyed working with them all. We spent many fascinating hours together interviewing the 57 contestants who came from all over. The IML staff (especially, Billy Lane, Mike Hernandez and Peter Fiske) gave us such VIP treatment. It was definitely a milestone in my life. And I think we chose a great new IML, Andy Cross.

The judges:  Pup Nitro Hankinson, Uwe Langer, Murray Lavigne, Hardy Haberman, Patrick Mulcahey, Woody Woodruff, me, Rik Newton-Treadway and Brent Seeley

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Volunteer for Leather Pride Night., Sat. 6/22

June 21st, 2013 · No Comments

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Would you like to be a volunteer at Leather Pride Night? This year’s beneficiaries are Bailey House, TLDEF (Transgender Legal Defense & Education Fund), National Coalition for Sexual Freedom and NYC Pride.

Most volunteer slots are only one hour which is a short time for a four hour event. Volunteering enhances your experience of LPN and gives you a chance to be part of the action and to meet people.

Tickets for Leather Pride Night are $20 in advance, and $25 at the door. Because this is a fundraiser, everybody pays (even me and the other committee members). If you need a scholarship, let me know and we will comp you a ticket at no cost.

You can purchase tickets online (up until midnight tonight) for Leather Pride Night:

http://lpnxxx.bpt.me

or in person from any of the 9 sponsoring organizations, or at stores like Purple Passion or The Leather Man.

Here’s where we still need help (UPDATED):

Unload Storage with Sigrid, Tip et al, Noon-1:30pm
2 people

Load in XL with Sigrid, Tip et al, 1-2:30pm
4 people

Location Set-up with Grant, 1- 3pm
1 person

Will Call Assistant – help SuzieQ and Elise with items from auction after bid
7-8
8-9 1 person

Ticket takers with Mark & Catelynn
7:30-8:30 1 person

Box Office with Mark & Catelynn
9-10 2 people

Raffle Table Staff with Jiffe and Pearl
7-8 2 people
8-9 1 person
9-10 2 people

Raffle Ticket Sales with Jiffe
6-7:30 5 people
7:30-8:30 4 people
7:30-8:30 6 people
8:30-9:30 4 people

Silent Auction Staff with Alan
5:30-7 2 people
7-8 1 person
8-9 2 people
9-10 2 people

Flea Market Sales Staff with David Menkes
6-7:30 2 people
7:30-8:30 1 person
8:30-9:30 2 people

Security with Daniel
5:30-7pm 2 people
7-8pm 2 people
8-9pm 4 people
9-10pm 3 people

Flea Market Breakdown with La Rubia
9:30-10:30 4 people

Location Breakdown with Nayland
10pm-10:45pm 3 people

Sunday Unload Van and Load in Storage with Sigrid, Tip et al.
1:00 to 1:30pm 4 people

If you’re interested in volunteering or have any questions, please
email me at lpnnyc@aol.com.

Thanks!

Lolita Wolf

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e[lust] #46

June 9th, 2013 · No Comments

Welcome to e[lust] – The only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions it’ll be here at e[lust].  Want to be included in e[lust] #47? Start with the newly updated rules, come back June 1st to submit something and subscribe to the RSS feed for updates!

 

~ This Week’s Top Three Posts ~

 

How to Shave Your Asshole

Tied and Blindfolded

Why Disney is like BDSM

 

~ Featured Posts (Molly’s Picks) ~

Because you are so beautiful

Suspension of Disbelief

 

~ Readers Choice from  Sexbytes ~

Dildology: The Science of Sex Toys

 

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

The Vagina Thief
The Role of Feelings in Swinging Lifestyle
Why I Feel No Jealousy
Spontaneous
I Asked SilverHubby to Respond to a Comment
Mastering Masturbation in 7 Steps
The One Where I Face Reality

 

Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor

The Cycle of Change, Simplified
My IMsL 2013 Keynote

 

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Kink of the Week #5: Roleplay
How To find (and catch) a Male Submissive
How to be a Good female Sub
The Master’s Voice
Kink of the Week #5: Roleplay
“S&M: The Dark Side of Gay Liberation”, 1975
PolyAnna’s Musings: Choosing Revisited
KOTW-Roleplay: W’s Perspective
Brat-tastic!
Liberating the Fisherman’s Wife
How much realism should be in BDSM erotica?

 

Erotic Fiction

Sunday Morning
Warehouse 69 Episode 2: The Marquis’ Crop
Sunday Morning
Salivate
Suffer
Bend Over, Bad Kitty!
Dirty Sexy Money
Lolita Twenty-Thirteen, Part Four

 

Erotic Non Fiction

My First MMF Threesome
That Smile
What Wet Dreams are Made Of…..
A Good Match
I was a Naughty Girl
Jets
Right Here. Now.
I fantasize about blowjobs & being a good girl

 

Poetry

Things to Wear – NaPoWriMo
Blood Lust
A poem for Rose
Vanishing
Colorless
Subby Space

 

Blogging

Look at Me!

 

Ashley Graham and Felony on WhippedAss.com

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My IMsL 2013 Keynote

April 28th, 2013 · 4 Comments

First I want to congratulate Sahra, the new IMsL, and Bella, the new IMsBB. This is a real milestone year with the Bootblack anniversary. Who could have ever predicted that we would ever have such a bootblack community of women?

I am so honored to be this year’s keynote speaker. My first IMsL was in 1995 when I was invited to be a judge. In 1996 I coordinated the workshops. I’ve been the Celebrity Auction Coordinator and I’ve taught workshops and intensives, led panels and now look! I’m the keynote. This is a really big deal for me.

My standing before you today wasn’t easy, and it wasn’t simple. My path was not a straight line into the scene. Instead, it was like a pinball game, getting bounced around, ricocheting left and right. It led through some places where I had to confront my own doubt and shame. And frankly, I’m still not really over it.

I was brought up never to talk about sex. My mom gave me books from the library to explain about menstruation and sex. ”Here read this and ask me any questions. And never talk to anybody about it, not even your friends.” We never discussed sex after that.

It was certainly not a sex-positive upbringing. Nobody had even use the term sex-positive in those days.

The kids at school were not too different. I didn’t know anybody who was gay. And We’re talking New York City in the seventies! You KNOW that there were gay people at that school, but no one was out. A rumor went around about me that I was bisexual and that was pretty scandalous. I secretly kind of liked the rumor and wondered if any bisexual opportunities would present themselves to me, but nothing happened. Nobody was willing to admit to being gay or, for that matter, kinky.

I was kinky before I had words for it. Looking back, I played D/s games with my boyfriends. Tease and denial. Sensuous torments. I would play games like gin rummy or backgammon for points. It would start with every point was worth a minute of massage, and then I would up the ante so that every point was worth a minute of slavery. I didn’t care who won. I just wanted to play the game.

I had a tough time sexually with my boyfriends. Some complained that I was too rough in bed. Why couldn’t we be gentle? That confused me. I did not have a answer for that. Rough felt good to me. But I just felt bad about that. As if I was doing it wrong.

I was looking for something sexually and I fucked a lot of people. Hundreds. I felt like I was always searching for something but I did not know what.

I remember going to see the movie, Story Of O with my boyfriend. Afterward I was so excited. This was amazing. I said, “Let’s play Story Of O!” I thought this was a brilliant idea. He squashed that pretty quickly. “No, silly, that’s just a movie.” Once again it left me with that feeling that what I wanted was bad, invalid and wrong.

But I always had these BDSM fantasies. When I was little, before I even knew about sex, I imagined being the captive princess being forced to do things. I would cooperate because I needed to stay alive until the king’s men would rescue me. These are still, to this day, my favorite fantasies.

I continued to have sex and the fantasies would continue for me. And I tried to share them with my lovers. I remember talking dirty with a lover. We had been together for a while. One day, I began to talk during sex. “Use me, fuck me!” He stopped and told me not to talk that way because it was degrading. Again I was being made to feel that what I wanted was bad, invalid and wrong.

So, why didn’t I stick up for myself? Why didn’t I just say that these were harmless bedroom fantasies and activities? Because I did not have the tools. I did not know how to say that this was something that gets me hot and that it was harmless. I did not know how to say I wanted to be used during sex but not in the rest of my life. I felt like a freak (not the good kind of freak). Like a misfit that did not do sex right, that wanted things that no one else wanted.

When I tell people this now, many of them ask me how could I be so clueless. Why did I not find info and books? Well this was well before the Internet. I could not just Google it. I also had no clue that any community existed around BDSM. It was not even called BDSM at that time. What about adult bookstores? No, I was a sexually repressed girl who did not go to those seedy porn stores in Times Square. Porn stores were filled with creepy people. I was not creepy like that. The only representation of BDSM I could see was in the newspapers.

There was no safe loving BDSM portrayed. It was all sensationalist horrible stories. I particularly remembered the Crispo story. It happened in 1985. Andrew Crispo was a millionaire art dealer. He and Eigil Vesti, a handsome young fashion student from Norway, met at the Hellfire club. Crispo and another man shot and killed Vesti during a sado-masochistic sex ritual. Vesti’s body was found hooded and handcuffed. Oh, the tabloids loved this story I was titillated by the photos of the handcuffs and the hood (now favorite toys of mine), but I was disgusted and frightened by the fact that the bottom died. I was a nice girl. I did not want to die. I just did not think nice people, people like me, did BDSM or S&M or B&D or whatever they called it back then.

And there were very few books. Ties That Bind was not published until 1993. SM101 was not published until 1998. I did not find the earlier books, Leatherman’s Handbook, Coming To Power and Macho Sluts, until the late 80’s. Because I did not know about the gay bookstores that carried them.

I am still kind of ashamed at how clueless I was. There was no one to guide me. I had no role models.
In the 80’s my favorite books were the Gor series. I found them in used bookstores in the science fiction section. These are the books that later everyone in the scene made fun of, because they were so poorly written. But they were my porn then. They portrayed a D/s fantasy world. It was all I could find. And I devoured them all.

I explored the lesbian scene while I traveled to San Francisco in the late 70’s. Everybody seemed so masculine with their short hair, flannel shirts and blue jeans. I felt like I did not fit in. The community seemed also very separatist at the time. Womens cafes and womens bookshops, womens pottery and womens poetry. My favorite activity was going hot-tubbing with small groups of women. A very California thing to do. I enjoyed it, but I was overwhelmed by the womens community and actually missed men. And each time I was there, after several days, I felt relieved to leave and come up for air.

The lesbian scene in NYC seemed not much more welcoming in those days. I only knew about one lesbian bar called the Dutchess and when I finally worked up the courage to go there, no one would talk to me.

Things began to change for me in the mid-80’s I found the phone sex lines. Still searching, looking for what was right for me. Nothing was connecting with me until one night, I was on a private call with someone I had “met” on a sex line and he said, “Hey, let me three-way us onto this other line. It’s really wild.” I waited as he dialed and we listened as a sexy woman said “This is 976-2222. Welcome to the B&D line where all your bondage and discipline fantasies come true.” I listened expecting to hear creepy people, but was surprised to hear people who sounded intelligent, personable and fun. My pal, who had three-wayed me on was saying “Isn’t this a hoot? Can you believe it?” I was like “Uh-huh.” Yeah.” And as soon as I had disengaged with him. I was calling 976-2222 on my own. I still remember that number! For weeks I called and listened to all the personalities that inhabited that line. Just listening, not speaking. Racking up a huge phone bill. I was fascinated. Here were nice people who did not sound like creeps or murderers and they were talking about the things I was so interested in.

Eventually I began to talk to them and even met some of them (one of them being Laura Antoniou – you know, she wrote the Killer Wore Leather – go buy it now) So, I met people privately and I bottomed and topped for the first time. I learned from both the tops and the bottoms whom I met. And I began to go to the NYC clubs, Paddles and The Vault and I played and I met people who taught me how to top. I finally found my people. I was out at the clubs every weekend.

I had heard about TES, New York’s Eulenspiegel Society, but the people on the phone lines and the people I met at the clubs warned me away from that group. I did check it out once and it was creepy. I went to one of their meetings in a dark strip club. It was mostly single men. The scheduled speaker had to cancel and someone else spoke about his journey in the scene. He spoke of his mistress who bound him to a stool and started pushing it. He cried out in fear that the stool would tip over. She did not heed him and continued pushing. The stool did indeed tip over did and he wound up with a broken collarbone. Yet he remained with the mistress. I found his story revolting. I thought the mistress was reckless and uncaring. But what bothered me most was that he remained with her and continued the relationship. This was not what I was looking for. I left and it was years before I returned to TES.

In 1990, I decided to try out TES again, I had met a man named Hilton while he had staffed an outreach table at The Vault. He sold me on trying TES again. Hilton became a close friend and mentor and he’s now my boss.

Anyway, TES was still in the same building as before but now they met upstairs in a bright white loft. It seemed that more people were going and they seemed non-creepy. I went to a party, had trouble meeting people. I was a bit of a wallflower. It was hard because it seemed people knew each other and I was not part of the clique. So, I volunteered for the next party. I spent an hour selling sodas. And I was noticed by the group’s organizers. They are always extra nice to people who volunteer. But also the partygoers felt comfortable talking to me, figuring that I was one of the people who made things happen. And I guess, in some small way, I was. (Oh, and I am still volunteering! Yesterday morning I was moving dungeon equipment downstairs at 7:30 in the morning.)

After that, I felt like I was a part of something. Something clicked. I was talking about what I was into; I was meeting people who were into similar things. I stood in a space where I could talk to people, without judgment, without any care about my history and how I got here and instead just be. It seems like such a small step, but it was so huge, I can’t even explain. I guess that’s when I truly blossomed.

I was very happy at TES, got more involved. I liked the education that TES did. And there were program people there who encouraged me to teach. I ran for the board in 1991. Part of my platform was to change the price structure. Men paid more than women for meetings and parties. I got heavily involved in making TES a better place. Membership was in the 200’s when I got there and by 1994 we had over 1100 members.

Things were very different back then. Ya know, safe words was not an old guard thing. I first heard about safewords at an NLA:Metro New York party in the early 90’s at Belle Du Jours. It was explained to me by one of the leaders that a safeword was an out of context word, like “Strawberries.” When a bottom uttered their safeword, it meant that they wanted to stop the action. However, I was instructed to hit them once or twice more, just to show who was in control, and then stop.

It was not until I attended GMSMA 10th Anniversary Leatherfest in 1991 that I saw my first Leatherdykes. I attended the only all womens class on Clips and Clamps by JD Rabbit. It was there that I learned that there was a group called Lesbian Sex Mafia. You had to write to their PO Box and get invited. They did not always write back and when they did it often took months to get a reply. We were not living in the instant Internet age.

SM Leatherwomen were very underground and hidden in those days. Some women were even scared to wear their motorcycle jackets. We were at the tail end of the sex wars. Militant feminists would attack Leatherwomen, sometimes physically. It was dangerous to be a dyke into leather. Sex with men was considered violence against women (according to feminists like Andrea Dworkin, even penetrative sex with a husband was rape.) Women’s sex shops like Eve’s Garden in NYC were edgy and sold dildos, but only carried ones that were pink and purple and shaped like dolphins. They did not carry anything realistic that looked like a man’s cock.

So, I finally heard back from LSM and was invited to attend an orientation which was held in a private home. It was Betty Dodson’s apartment. I had no idea who she was. We were told all about LSM and we were interviewed in small groups by members. After we left, the members then met and decided who to propose to the the bigger group at the next meeting. At the meeting members would vote you in. Not everybody was voted in. Then you had to attend a safety lecture in order to join. Meetings were for members only. On the other hand, most of the parties were open to non-members.

I became more involved and joined the LSM board in 1995 as Outreach Coordinator and in 1996 I was chair for a year. One of the big changes, I made was that meetings were made open to non-members. I believed education was important to open up to everybody.

In 1995 at the Living In Leather conference in Portland, I met the people who are now my leather family. The family has evolved and changed over the years, but these are the people who totally accept me for who I am, support me in all I do and make sure there is always a spot for me. They encouraged me to attend my first Powersurge in 1996. I was wary about going because I had heard that they were unfriendly to bisexual women, but they insisted that I come and that they nobody would mess with me if I was with them. The bisexual issue actually wound up not being a big deal because that year everybody was much more focused on the trans men who attended. These guys passed the dick in the drawer test (you know what that is? It means that t was okay to have a dick as long as you could take your dick and put it in a drawer and slam it shut and walk away. But many women were distressed by their presence. These guys were hairy and scary. So, bisexuals became a total non-issue.

1995 was also the year I got a computer. I totally embraced this technology and started a weekly chat room on AOL and also became active on the Women Of Leather boards. I am still friends with some of the folks I met there. And I ventured beyond AOL and posted on ASB. I started a newsletter that grew to a list of over a thousand people each week. I spent a lot of time answering questions and putting people together. I can’t count how many times I sent out bylaws and dungeon rules to people who were starting new groups around the country. And answering questions that people had about BDSM. And connecting people to groups in their areas.

I went from searching for what I needed sexually and emotionally to getting involved in my community. I was playing my ass off and having the sex that I wanted and needed to have, and I was building community and helping others find it. I was happy!

I loved the computer then and the email and the boards and even nowadays social media like twitter. But, for me, it is just a tool to bring people together in the real world. We can’t forget that the real connections we can make are live and in person. That’s why events like IMsL are so important.

Nowadays, I’ve been working at Purple Passion in NYC. I totally love my job. And what I’ve found is that there are still so many people out there who are just like I was. Looking for something to explain their urges, to satisfy their curiosities, to explore that fantasy that they’re afraid to even mention to others out of fear.

I am still answering questions and helping people find their way. Whereas I had read those crappy Gor novels, people are now coming into the shop having read those crappy 50 Shades of Grey books. And they are hungry to explore and learn. Oh, and what does our community do? We make fun of them! We mock them! We call them weekend warriors, annoying vanillas, blah blah blah. This “scene” of ours isn’t the be all and end all to kinky sex. For every one of us sitting in this ballroom, there are 100’s more out there who are merely curious, or who still don’t know where to go, or how to say it, or are afraid of the stigma of BDSM. There are hundreds and thousands of people out there for whom 50 Shades of Grey has been the first thing that validated what they were thinking and who they are.And I’m happy to help them find their path. Just like I wish someone had helped me in my early days.

So, what about our future? We’ve won the battle with Gays in the military. We are making great strides with marriage equality. Not just state by state in the US, but all over the world! But now? Now we need to work to remove the stigma of BDSM. We talk about the people who mentor us in leather, who teach us skills and tradition, but just as important are those people who simply welcome us into kink. We may only see them once but that simple act of welcoming is often more important than all the training and teaching. It’s something a computer can never do for you, and I’m proud to be a welcoming face for beginners and questioners every day.

A couple of years ago, I did a photo with audio story with the New York Times One in 8 Million series. It appeared online and also in the printed Metropolitan section. Now, I had been out to a certain degree before that, but you are really out when you are featured in a photojournalism piece in the New York Times. The New York Times! This was a huge step for me. Very scary. I talked to the journalist a lot before I decided to do it. I trusted that the piece would not be sensationalist and judgmental and I knew I did not have to answer every question they asked me. I was very cautious and spoke only about what I felt I wanted people to know. I love the way the piece came out. I did it because I think we need to portray the normal. We need to show ourselves as regular people who also happen to do BDSM.

So, come out. Come out as much as you can! And remember that whatever path leads newcomers to you even if it’s the path of Fifty Shades, you can be the person to help someone step out of shame and into bliss..

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